The ending of January doesn’t necessary one month yeah to make this totally end! How this heart feeling so empty when he said, “I don’t love you like I did yesterday” by a short message service. A simple quote copied by a famous song by “My Chemical Romance – I don’t love you”. I was gonna be crazy if I have to stay along night at home. So I went to Dorothy and waited Jawa picked me up. Dorothy tried to tell Mr. K that I was in hers and pleased him to pick me out there (ok sorry, it was just me texted him not Dorothy exactly). I was hoping so much he wanted to pick me up, but Jawa did it. Even replied a SMS, he needed a long time to do. And I don’t know how I passed my empty heart empty night and empty for anything that day. I hate to be in a relationship!! It just made me so crazy and unconscious! Why my friend can be so normal to be stay together along day, month even years!? Uncontrollable me. Never in a relationship before maybe made me poor in some ways.
I opened my eyes and realized its February, I sang a song that just passed on my mind when I awake,
“Kasihku sampai disini
Kisah kita, jangan tangisi keadaannya,
Bukan karena kita berbeda.
Dengarkan,
Dengarkan lagu,
Lagu ini, melodi rintihan hati ini,
Kisah kita berakhir di Januari.”
What a weird song! It really matched on me, sh*t! I wanted something by him on this February T.T I wanted something that it could be really him, so when I missed him, he could be stay next to me always. Poor chimenk, its February, it should be you that gave him something that it could be really me! 3 years passed, twice broken and once spent in waiting. I don’t wanna stay like that or be in that position anymore. I DON’T! I PROMISE!!
This year, a dragon water as Chinese Year and Valentine were too pain to remember and too hurt to stay back. A great angpao still waiting me next day, month and year :)
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