the worst valentine

I never thought this before, I just think he can denied me with his way :(

I'm too child to know what i said !


"Let me be a child, don't know what I said.
Let me be a chicken, always closed my face.
Let me be my own, b'cz I'm always weak inside, looks stronger in outside.
In this valentine, I'm wanna tell u something, from my heart.
Actually, I'm wanna tell this in my last Christmas or New Year, but maybe I didn't have many encourage in myself. I just want to tell u face to face, but u know I'm too shy to said it all, and I'm to weakness to keep stronger in front of u !
Always afraid around me, keep everybody's heart in my mind.
Don't wanna make them disappointed to me.
Try to avoid u in my eyes, b'cz ur eyes will make my hurt really hurt than before.
Always be my own, make u ilfeel to me. And its me.
Always laughing in my face, but crying in my heart.
My tears always touch my hurt. It's so horrible !
But I don't wanna be late again !!!
It's the time, to expression ur love to someone that I love.
I don't hope u will be respond voice of my heart.
I just wanna u reply what I want to know and say what u feeling 'bout me.
And its so exciting, if u know it today or tomorrow, if late...never mind."

I want u to be honest to me :)
Don't thinking about my feeling, Just Be Honest !!!

I just want to said it all, I don't wanna regret at the last.
Don't want to sigh in my life at the last.

Yeah, This valentine, the last valentine in here is the worst valentine that I have !
Please wake me up, if today is just a dream !
I don't want to dreaming again like this :(

He appreciated my encourage to said it all, but sure it still hurts !
And now, I got headache, too much I always think about it :(

Wanna sleep again, and I hope I'll dreaming what I want.
But I realized something, it won't never been !!!

Have someone, he said :(

And the last, First Love is the worst thing that I thought before !
Sure its bullshit !

But......., *tatoki kuat dikursi in my knee* realized me something !
I still have my friends who loved me like their sister and of course my commy :))

LOve u all !!!

N.B : If I have met u again, can I ask u something ?
Can I hold ur hands ? Feels ur warm of the bf ?
And when in the second chance in our life, would u be my bf ?


07.30pm :))