crazy ~ love ~ Forbidden ~ cahyo

2010年02月23日

what's a crazy day todayy !!!
trance..hiiii..:&

And then I have given him 2 rambutan..akakak3x
They said he loved it :p
And then, what happened after this..akakak3x.
My friends its so crazy !!! They keep me behind them all !!! Didn't let me go and still behind him !!! Good fortune i have panci's phone, i could listen music so noisy in my ears !!! ahahaha.lol:D, dunno what they talked about..:D

this is my reply text message for my friend in CA.

~Joshua Lara~

man...,uhm...that's really awful of your friends to do something so mean and cruel....where did they think that they got the right to do such a thing? its not fair in my eyes. stuff like this happens at my school too though. what you're gonna have to do is just wait it out and get through whatever trouble you may encounter. you have to face everything up front. no fears. no regrets on your feelings and emotions. got it.? =)

~me~
thank u so much, u can understand my feeling.
actually, i'm so thankful b'cz i could say my feeling to him. although he didn't want me :)
what like u said.."no fears, and no regrets..."
i have said it to him. b'cz i didn't want to regret my love in the last :)
okay its my first love..(remember Nikka Costa's songs)
i have hidden it all from my friends, and just little of them that knew i love him:) i'm so clever to hidden it all..ahaha.lol

and then, most of my friends thought that i love Mr. X !!!
ck ! sure i'm not realized it before :p
and then, i try to forget him, and try to love Mr. X. b'cz my feeling, suddenly appears in my heart for Mr. X, cz its gossip :p

i'm not angry to them, b'cz i might to hidden it all. It's so horrible ! should hidden my feelings..?? contradict with human rights...ahaha.lol..
never mind. it's okay. i try to keep stronger after it all.
especially, my friend(s) have liked him too..!!! i don't want to make 'them' disappointed to me, just b'cz a boy !!!
moreover they have told me their feelings before i have this feeling.

and then u should know one thing, sure i don't know what is my feeling now....i'll try to look my future now =))
Forbidden love !!!

~May Josh didn't angry to me, b'cz this blog, hoping mode !!!~